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Rustling of the Wind
by Anonymous
There
she goes again, her smooth long, silky, black hair that
seemingly tried to escape from her. The wind rustles again
and her hair sparkles beautifully against the cool, autumn
air. I breathed out and noticed how incongruent my hot
breath contrasted against the beautiful scenery of autumn
right before me. She always walked past me as I stood
waiting at the public bus for my daily commute home; and
every day, I would tilt my head to the side just to have a
glance at her petite frame for a second. I always thought
about going up to her to greet her with a friendly “Hi” but
the moment was never right. I remained hopeful that an
opportunity would present itself when I least expected it,
and hoped that when the chance arose, I would be able to
muster the courage to take that first step. My hope remained
strong till one day I realized that like any flame, it
disappears.
“Hey Thomas, have you ever thought about your future?”
“Hmm, what do you mean by that question?”
“Like, what kind of girl do you want to marry?”
“Yeah I have, I’m going to marry a Chinese girl.”
“Really, so are you only into Chinese girls?”
“Yeah, why are you asking all these questions?"
“Because well there’s this girl that I’m interested in.”
“Is she black?"
“What? Uh… no….”
“Good, then go for it.”
Ever since the days of high school, my family and friends
drilled several thoughts into my head. The first of which
were do well in school and life. (Did you notice that school
came first, then life?) Then came something totally
expected, it was subtly said, no wait, it was whispered “…no
blacks”. I was shocked yet intrigued in the views of my
relatives and friends who strongly supported interracial
dating, but with the exception of one race. How was this
possible? Is that the same as racism? I thought to myself;
well if you’re singling one race in particular to be
scrutinized, then yes it is absolutely racism.
When I asked my Asian friends if they would ever date or
marry a black girl they responded with a zealous no. There
was never a moment of hesitation in their response. Even my
friends from China that had just picked up the language
understood my questions of race preference perfectly clear.
They too responded without faltering. When I asked them why,
they responded with “I don’t know, it’s just that it would
never work out.”
One time I got this response, “It’s like mixing black paint
and yellow paint. At first it seems fun but what you get in
the end, is a messy picture.” I continued asking and
received even more astonishing responses. “It’s the way they
(black girls) talk, they way they look and the way they act,
think about it, do you honestly think it’ll work out?”
Surprisingly, when I asked if they felt any sort of
animosity toward blacks, my Asian friends would say that
it’s not that they have any animosity toward blacks, nor
were they racist. I was puzzled yet my fascination with the
issues of interracial dating grew exponentially. For awhile,
I too began to believe that the mixture was like oil and
water, you can stir all you want but in the end, they will
always separate. Perhaps, Asian culture was too different,
too incongruous to the lifestyles of blacks.
This norm or whatever you may call it maybe in fact,
applicable to the vast majority of blacks and Asians; but I
hope in my heart that this wasn’t applicable to me nor to
her, and especially not the embers that remained from my
previous flame. One day in September, when the leaves
rustled about and the cool autumn air was setting in, I
spotted her. This was the moment and I took a step forward. |